Missing Him.

Thomas is at work for the day. Twelve hours of hard labor before coming home to me. Though he can't rest once he comes home. He will shower, then pack the car and we get ready for the four and a half hour trip to see my parents for Christmas. Well, it won't be 'officially' Christmas but Thomas has to work both Christmas Eve and Day so we're splitting Christmas up into two days. The 23rd is our Christmas with my parents, and the 27th is our Christmas with Thomas' parents.

He's so hard working. He likes his job and the people he works with, but the schedule is so tiring for him. Three days on, three days off, twelve hour shifts, four weeks of day shifts and four weeks of night shifts, rotating. Not to mention that he gets covered in fiber glass throughout the day, so he can't hug me when he comes home until he's had a shower. All that in itself is just one of the millions of things that I admire about him. He works so hard so I don't have to and doesn't complain. Every morning (during the four weeks of day shifts) he wakes up at 6:00 am and gets ready for the day while I make him his lunch and write him a note on his napkin. He pecks my lips softly goodbye and pats my belly, telling Vincent goodbye as well before heading off to the Plant.

It's hard to see him go, especially since I'm home alone with just our cats all day. I would go back to work but I don't feel many people would hire me two months before Vincent's due date. After he's born and out of the 'newborn' stage I'm going to go back to school part time and finish getting my associates degree. I don't like being home all day. I feel useless and bored. I know it won't be that way once Vincent's born, but until then I'm just going to have to deal with it. I'm sure my cats think I'm insane because I have a one-way conversation with them.

One of my friends, Sarah, finally paid us back in full the $400 she owed us for helping her out with her rent a year and few months back. That was such a blessing and came just in time, because this is Thomas and I's first Christmas together and buying Christmas decor and presents was looking bleak. We still don't have many Christmas decorations, but at least we have four stockings (Two for Thomas and I, and two for Abby and Ramona. Our kitties needed stockings too!) hung up on the wall, two snowman figurines and a small, sparkly, silver, squiggly Christmas tree on our entertainment center, and two different sparkly blue snowflake ornaments that are hung up in random places in the living room. It's a small start. We even got to get each other great gifts. I can't wait for Thomas to see all of his.

There's just something about wrapping presents. I'm not the best out there, but I can say I do a pretty good job. I love seeing the bits of paper everywhere, the tape, the ribbons, the bows strewn around the floor as Abby and Ramona dart about, pouncing on each other over their crumpled wrapping paper hideouts.

Even though our first Christmas together is small, it will be the most special. If only we can find a good 'Our First Christmas Together' ornament. I still haven't found one yet, but I'll not lose faith. There's still a few places around that we haven't looked yet. Someone's bound to have something we like. Then we'll actually have a Christmas Tree to put it on next year, along with our randomly hung blue sparkly snowflakes. I love this time of year.

I finally decided I shall choose to battle the vaccines Vincent and us will be bombarded with once he arrives. Many women I attend Couples' Connection with haven't had any of their children vaccinated. They know other pediatricians that don't push vaccs on you either, so that was wonderful. I don't feel so alone anymore. =)

My house is finally clean! The only thing it lacks is a good vacuuming. I'll do that once I come back from my mother's house. I feel I can breathe now. I love my house being clean... I love it love it love it. Because I don't feel so overwhelmed by a huge mess, I can tackle the little messes that happen so the housework won't pile up like before. =D Happiness is a clean house.

I found out that Thomas is off for New Years Eve and Day, which is great, because we both thought he had to work! Now he'll get to attend the New Years Eve bash all our friends are planning. XD It's going to be great fun. I can't wait. The party just wasn't going to be the same without him there to wrap his strong arms around me and kiss me right at the stroke of midnight.

Even though we still have a bit to go to get out of the financial rut we're in, I can actually say I'm content. Thomas and I are happy. We're getting closer to getting everything paid off. Vincent is a healthy baby inside the womb with no impending trouble. The house is clean. We will actually have a Christmas this year when it was looking bleak. *content sigh* I need to thank God more than I have been. He's not on the back burner but He's not in the front either like He should be.

Thank you, my Lord, for blessing us every day.