.Thinking.

Something Kris wrote in his journal got me thinking about the same thing myself.

I have very little friends.

I think it's because I never get out. I don't attend college anymore, and I don't really hang out with anyone from church save about two people. Even then I don't see them that often because they're more Thomas' friends than mine. When I was in college, I was constantly surrounded by friends. 20+, near about. I lived by myself in an apartment, so I constantly had company over so I wouldn't be alone. I think almost 24/7 I at had at least one person over. I loved it.

Now, being a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom) my social life has gone down the drain. When Vincent gets a little bit older I'm going to go back to school part time and get my Associates Degree in Print and Multimedia. I had tons of guy friends before, but I think some of that had to do with me being single, that and being an Animation/Graphic design major I was the only girl in any of my classes. I really need more girlfriends, so that's my goal once I start college. I'm not that kind of person to just walk up to a group of people and be like "Hey! Wanna be friends?" I don't roll that way. I have to be in an environment where we have to work in groups and ask questions, and I get to know people that way. That's how I grabbed all my friends when I was in college before. I hear it all the time, I read it in magazines, I see it on TV, about how women want/need to go have some 'girl' time with their girlfriends and have a 'girls night out' or something along those lines. I have three best girlies, Ashley, Jenna, and Shara, I love them dearly, but they're all so far away. Texas is too big, sometimes. We all live in the same state but it takes forever to see anyone. I wish we all lived in the same city.

But, yeah, that's my goal. To net me some local girlfriends so I can be a girl every once in a while. I'm such a tom boy and mostly like everything that guys like, like I'm into video games, anime, and I love fishing, just to name a few. (Shara's into that stuff but she's the only other girl I know who likes that stuff but she's 10 hours away) But there's a girly girl deep down inside, and I'd love to unleash her every once in a while with a group of girlfriends. Guys don't want to come with me to go clothes shopping, or get a pedicure or manicure. (I've never gotten either because I dare not ever go by myself.. to me that's something you do with friends. I'm weird.) I never go clothes shopping alone either. I want to squeal over cute clothes and talk about which guy is hotter, the one walking towards us or the one working in the shop to the right. I can't do that with guy friends. Well, unless they were gay, but even then that would be kinda weird/awkward.

You know, back in the day I used to talk about how I never get along with girls, and guy friends are the way to go, but I realize that that kind of thinking is kinda on the brink of immature. I didn't get along with girls because I didn't want to, save Ashley, Jenna, and Shara. If a girl came into the mix back in the day I would have gotten jealous/angry. Now that I've matured and grown up a little I realize that I need girl companionship. I crave it.

It'll still be a while until I go back to school, and most of the girls I know at my church aren't anywhere near into what I'm into, so the notion of netting some local girls to be my pals will take a while, it seems.